A Mensch Buys Karma…

“You can’t buy karma” a friend recently told me.

Buy it…?  I replied, hell, I’m investing heavily in it!  Perhaps…

I probably come across, at least in the social media sphere, as a bit of a mensch.  Of course, I like that identity, but it’s not the whole story.

A year ago, I invited my mother to live with me.  This would be a win/win scenario.  I would be proximate to her and able to assist her with increasing needs as she ages.  In return, she would be able to clean up after me, do my dishes, cook, and split the utilities.  I win – again and again, hence, win/win.

And I do look out for her.  I make her coffee each morning, and bring the paper to her in bed.  I take her to Walmart, on the occasional casino trip, and I accompany her to all medical appointments.  When called upon, I do the heavy lifting around the house, and any carrying she requires. So, mensch!

But that’s not the whole story…

Yesterday, as I grew frustrated with a question she asked repeatedly, I threatened to shove a tennis ball in her mouth and wrap her head in duct tape if she spoke so much as another word.  I’m not sure the people behind us in the checkout line took this seriously, but when mom rolled her eyes and threated to beat my butt, I think they understood my threat was one of endearment.

That’s become my persona with her.  Whenever mom says something asinine, which might be every hour or so, I point my finger toward her nose and say something like…

…I’ve got two words for you, woman:  Nursing Home!

She always responds with, “I’ll beat your butt!”  or the more resolute, “I’m the parent here!!!as she stares me down.

I joke with my mom quite a bit like this – too much, I’m sure.  On a deeper level I know this bothers her, and in some ways, might even hurt her, but I keep doing it.  It’s how I cope with the frustrations of helping someone who is aging, forgetful, and doesn’t process as quickly as she once did.  She isn’t ready to let go the control of her life – or even loosen up the grip a bit, and I don’t blame her.


Despite the often sharp and serrated edges that can accompany my sarcasm and humor, I appreciate that she acknowledges and puts up with my frustrations.  Viscerally, I know that she recognizes that the real love is in the bringing of the coffee, the doctor’s visits, and the trips to Walmart when I would rather be hiking.

This isn’t always easy for either one of us, but at the end of the day there’s a lot of love in the house, and that’s good enough for me.

“You can’t buy karma” a friend recently told me.

Maybe not.  Perhaps the best we can hope to do is to purchase good field position…  Jhciacb


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Dignity Etched…

I often see things on social media which suggest to me that, even as I watch my mother age, as I also age, I’ll remember her more as she was when she was young.  Or at the very least, I’ll remember her as she was when I was young.  Though when I consider this, after having had my mother living with me for nearly a year, I’ll suggest they are optimistic reminders of a reality which won’t exist.  I’ve mostly forgotten the mother of my youth.


As she continues to age, and as her physical and cognitive abilities lessen, the images in my head of my mother in her youth fade more each year, giving way to the more indelible imprints of my mother as she is today.  This is not a bad thing.  Five years from now, 10 years from now, or even 20, I’m sure I won’t want to think too much or remember too well the mother of my youth, but I will be grateful to remember my mother of today.


When I think of her then, as she was when I was young, compared to how I see her now, there is an absence of much.  True, the mother of my youth could hike, swim, stay up late, and prepare a holiday feast for 12 in less than 3 hours, but there was yet to be the earned dignity which now defines her.

Today, as her steps become shaky, as her voice quivers, and as her hands resemble road maps with stains on them, the wisdom, the experience, and survivalism that come with these, add up to a dignity which I do want to remember her with.


This is a good reminder to me that, as bright and capable as I feel I am today, I have yet to pay my real dues.  The dues I speak of are not the dues of career, of parenthood, or of middle-age responsibilities.  The dues my mother has paid – those she continues to pay, are the most important dues of all.  These are the dues of having it all, and of having it all slowly slip away, yet waking up each day to live a little more despite the inevitable decline of all things material, all things physical, and many things cognitive.


I am grateful that I will remember my mother as person who falls asleep watching Jeopardy, who heats up a Stouffer’s creamed corn casserole for dinner rather than attempt to make one from scratch, who often calls me by my brother’s name, and who asks me the same damned questions again and again – all day long.

This person – this mother of mine now, is the mother that reminds me daily that I will be more like her in the not-too distant future, than the me I am today.  This mother, not the mother of my youth, is the woman who reminds me that it’s a fool’s task to believe in or even pursue perpetual youth, and that dignity comes only from letting go of youth, and letting go of all those things that, as time proves to us all, never mattered that much to begin with.  Be well…  rc



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The Goal Of Absence…

The Ghost Goals…

A 450 lb. deadlift.

A sub 7-minute mile.

A complete marathon.

A bodybuilding competition.

Swim 50 meters underwater on a single breath.

A reverse 1 ½ half dive with a full twist in the layout position from a 3-meter springboard.

These are some of the athletic feats which have fallen into the goals category at some point in my life.  I am glad that I was able to do all of these at some point in my life, even if I can’t do any of them today.  Though I am not training or preparing for a specific athletic competition or endeavor these days, I still workout consistently and with one goal above all others.

Med Head…

When my father died of complications from Parkinson’s disease over two years ago he was taking 19 medications on a regular basis – NINETEEN MEDICATIONS.  To be fair, some of those medications were useful in staving off the symptoms of his Parkinson’s, and served to enhance his quality of life.  Others though, were prescribed to offset the unwanted effects of his primary medications.

At the time he passed my father also had a neurologist, a cardiologist, a nephrologist, a urologist, a general practitioner, and I believe one or two other physicians whom he saw on a regular basis.  I won’t suggest whether or not any of them had a personal interest in my father’s wellbeing or whether he was just a number or a daily appointment each of them.  For the last two years of his life, my father saw some combination of these physicians weekly.

I do know this; each of those physicians prescribed at least one medication to help my father deal with his Parkinson’s and its related effects as they manifested within each of those physician’s specialty.  Or, they prescribed medications to help offset the unwanted effects of medications which were prescribed by the other physicians.  I call this the cascade of fragility; the more medications my father was on, the more fragile he became over time.

What my father's medicine cabinet might have looked like...

What my father’s medicine cabinet might have looked like…

Being close to the situation I can say definitively that these physicians did not talk to one another, and that often one medication prescribed would conflict with one of the others.  Though it might have been his GP’s job to manage this process, it seems he was not that effective with this responsibility.

How many doctors talk to each other...

How many doctors talk to each other…

Because my father was on so many medications at one time, it’s hard to say whether any of them were truly beneficial or counterproductive.  In his mind though, they were simply his best chance to win each day.

Goal Revision…

The oldest client I have worked with was 92.  Though he relocated to the desert several years ago, at the time we parted ways he was on no medications, none.  My oldest client today is 90, and she takes only one medication regularly and it is benign.

There is plenty of data correlating regular exercise with a lesser need for medications as we age, despite what ailments, diseases, and symptoms we encounter.  Regular exercise is a medication in itself.  We know the benefits of regular exercise are vast, yet they go widely underappreciated, under used by a majority people, and under prescribed by physicians.   Statistically speaking, most Americans get little or no deliberate exercise.

What I hope my medicine cabinet looks like when I'm 90...

What I hope my medicine cabinet looks like when I’m 90…

While I train weekly for strength, balance, flexibility, endurance, and even to look good, as I get older those are not my primary goals.  My longest term goal is that when I do die, all that can be found in my medicine cabinet are razors, cotton swabs, and Crest For Kids – stuff tastes just like bubble gum.  Be well…  rc

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The Limits Of Power…

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The Limits Of Power…

I have understood for a long time, in ways I believe many around me fail to understand, that the human body will only get so strong.  I have also believed that for most, the human body should only get so strong. 

It’s always been my belief that we have a social responsibility to be physically strong on behalf of those who may need us; family, friends, members of our community.  Not bench press strong, but help a wife move the sofa strong.  I feel the responsibility of strength extends that we maintain ourselves so we won’t need to depend on the strength of others.  In this era, that kind of strength is often cultivated through exercise.

That said, the utility of exercising to increase physical strength has a tipping point that, when it’s exceeded, utility can give way to diminished returns in other areas of one’s life.  Those who reach high levels of physical strength have likely sacrificed in other areas of their life in order to do so.  Peripheral physicality can give way when excess strength is pursued, as can personal, social, and business relationships.  That’s just my opinion, but I believe it has teeth.

However, the human body is capable of advancing in strength, and within reasonable bounds, at nearly any age, and without peripheral damage to the musculoskeletal structure, or to one’s social relationships.  Despite attempts to advance physical strength by millions of people each day, even the middle limits of individual power are generally never met.  

So how much is enough, how much is too much, and how does one find strength in the gym that translates outside the gym…?   In these next three essays I will share my thoughts on this…


Fred Ain’t Dead…

Fred is 68 years old.  He is an engineer by education, and tree grower by trade.  Fred is active, plays senior softball each week, hikes regularly, backpacks, and spends a fair amount of time daily tending to his trees, and his property.

Fred began working out with me several years ago in hopes that regular strength training would support his softball, and help him stay injury free.  For the first couple of years together, my emphasis with Fred was on the mindful conditioning of the areas which are most vulnerable in softball; Achilles tendons, hamstrings, low back, and shoulder movement.

Last year as I assessed Fred’s progress, I began to slowly increase the poundages he uses in his workouts.  The arcs of those increases are still on the rise.  He is now deadlifting 50 pounds more than this time last year.  His bench press is up about 30%.  His balance and agility are off the charts for being 68 years old, and his form in all of his movements is exceptional, and safe. 

What makes this progress significant though, is that each week he feels he’s playing softball as well as the week prior, and often better.  He’s remained mostly injury free.  When he has experienced a strain during a game, it’s always minimal, and gone within several days.  As Fred recalls his play from 3 years ago, it was anemic compared to his level of play after three years of strength training. 

Oh, and Fred strength trains just one day per week – just one.  As such, he’s not sacrificing too much in the form of unnecessary wear and tear on his body, nor is he taking excessive time away from his business or his family.  He’s making progress, without even approaching the tipping point of excess sacrifice from his body or his life.

Throwing In The Towel – Sort Of…

For years I have battled a duality within me, of how I perceive and pursue physical strength.  On one hand, there is the person who wishes to age gracefully, and function well right up to the point of my final breath.  On the other hand is the person who wants to perform, function, and look at the highest possible level – right now, today. 

In my mid-40s I began to reconcile this conflict with several of compromises.  Chief among those compromises was that I would continue to practice my brand of strength training, only do so with an increased emphasis on functionality, and a lesser emphasis on poundages used and aesthetics.  In theory, this was a means of preserving the longevity of the practice with only minimal sacrifice in performances and looks.

I made the decision that I would no longer attempt to increase my strength on any exercise.  My emphasis would be on consistency, and proper form.  I justified that so long as I maintained my existing level of strength, I would still be making progress inasmuch as I would still be on the clock of aging.  Through my mid-to-late 40s, this became my protocol. 

What I had theorized was ultimately fulfilled.  My muscle mass suffered some, my body fat increased some, but for a guy in his late 40s, I was looking, and functioning well, with less overall sacrifice, and I enjoyed my workouts.

Mid-Life Crisis 2.0…

Shortly after I turned 50 I began training several serious bodybuilders for the first time in a decade.  As I took inventory their progress, I began to yearn for progress of my own once again.  Shit.  Despite my concerns for aging well, and avoiding that tipping point where excessive strength and muscle work against utility, as well as the biological limitations of my aging physiology, 18 months ago I set into action a plan to regain the peak bodybuilding condition of my early 40s.  I’m now in my early 50s.

Leg Press:  Every weight in the house.  Proper form.  Full range of motion.  Not joint pain.

Leg Press: Every weight in the house. Proper form. Full range of motion. No joint pain.

In the past 18 months or so I have become stronger in most every strength movement than I have ever been – ever.  On most movements in the weight room, I’m using weights previously unused, with form as good as it’s ever been, and no residual pains, aches, or injuries.

Okay, so the faces ain’t pretty but the form is.  I could not have approached this weight in this form 12 years ago. 

I’m not suggesting that pursuing muscular gains like this, at this age is correct or even beneficial.  In truth, it’s both good, and bad.  I don’t expect to be hoisting these poundages, or sporting this mass 10 years from now.  I’m truly good with that.  If I’m being fully honest, there is less joy in hunting for gains than there is in pursuing utility from exercise.  I am though, committed to making meat while the sun still shines, knowing full well that the sun will begin to set at some point, and the arc of my recent progress will rescind.    

Be it by designer, or by Designer, we are designed to age and break down.  Believing we can avoid this is foolish.   However, within that design plan there exists some wiggle room – even for card carrying AARP folks like Fred, and me.  It is possible to make gains in physical strength which translate to enhanced physicality outside of the gym – at any age.  How far we take this, and what we sacrifice to achieve it, is open to discussion.  Does anybody remember discussion…?  Be well.  rc 


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Words can’t express…

Two month’s notice…

That day finally showed up last Thursday.  The day I knew had been coming for several months now, but hoped never would.  George, a client of many years, and a friend for precisely as long, explained that he would be leaving Fallbrook in mid-January, and relocating to a senior living community in Orange County.  George is 74, and lives with Parkinson’s disease.

On George…

George stepped into my studio for the first time years ago.  He was in his 60s, and was scarcely into his retirement from his career as an executive with an energy company.  George wanted to begin a fitness regimen to augment his twice per week golf schedule.  George also wanted to lose a few pounds around his waist, and improve his overall shape.  If functional strength training might help his golf game, peripheral weight loss would be a cherry on top.

George was focused with his workouts, and made progress quickly.  His balance improved.  His flexibility improved.  His endurance improved.  His strength improved – to a point where he could leg press several hundred pounds, and do so safely in proper form.  His golf even improved.  He even dropped a few pounds through the years here and there, occasionally joking that Nabisco wasn’t going to get anymore of his money.

Though our workouts have always been results focused, conversations of life, politics, family, and sports are always present within the fiber of our exercise sessions.  In fact, those conversations have been at the heart of this friendship.  My conversations with George, even when of a serious nature, always had a positive tone.  Nobody ever asked us to, but if challenged, George and I are prepared to save the world.

Witchcraft in the wind…

Maybe 5 years ago, George was diagnosed with Parkinson’s disease. The pragmatic engineer in him accepted that affliction with no resistance. He approached it with a resolve to wake up each day, and address Parkinson’s in the best way he could; stoically, and with a strong faith in western medicine.  Though there is no cure for Parkinson’s at this time, his neurologist has excelled at helping George use medications to treat his symptoms.  George’s wife, Judy, has been a supreme support system.  He often refers to her as, The Project Manager.

In the years since his diagnosis, George’s physicality has suffered some, but not disappeared entirely.  This is partially due to the disease itself, and partially due to the medications he uses to offset Parkinson’s.  He still plays golf twice weekly, continues to exercise regularly, mows weeds, and periodically hunts for gophers, and squirrels on his property.   His attitude and acceptance of the cards life has dealt him have been exceptional.  We should all be so graceful under these circumstances.

A couple of years back he entered my studio one day, and I asked him how his golf outing went the day prior.  This was his response:

“It was great!”

He continued,

“I didn’t play too well, but the turkey sandwich was excellent, and my friends and I laughed a lot.”

I was as humbled by his attitude, as I was by the sincere smile on his face as he spoke.  George and I often talk about how fortunate we both are, to the point of silliness, both grateful that we each seem to have won the lottery of birth.

The inevitable…

George no longer leg presses several hundred pounds.  Most of George’s workouts take place with a broom stick for resistance, and some 3 and 5 pound weights in his weathered hands.  We work largely on balance, and with a secondary goal to minimize muscle wasting.  He still gets pissed off when he misses a step on one particular balance exercise we do.  He rests more during the sessions these days, and the conversation extends more as the exercise have been scaled back, but the time is still useful for us both – for us both.

There is no way to quantify how George’s functional strength workouts have helped offset his fight with Parkinson’s, or whether they have made a difference at all.  The exercises themselves are quantifiable, but there are many variables involved with determining success; aging, medications, sleep, nutrition, etc. We both just agree, as does his neurologist, that he just keep moving.  I have seen no data source which suggests people with Parkinson’s avoid exercise.

George, and I last week.  George is the one wearing eye glasses...

George, and I last week. George is the one wearing eye glasses…

Of functionality, and fulfillment…

At a time when I struggle walking the line between the utility of functional exercise and the personal fulfillment of more intense exercise, George’s presence in my life has been a grounding factor.  If I don’t hit a PR in the deadlift, I’m good with it.  If i have trouble walking up stairs, I take notice.

George has paid me well for my time and resources through the years.  As time has gone on, I ruminate more and more over all I have learned from George – about how to address aging, disease, and the perspective he applies to both.  I have wondered increasingly, who should have been paying who all these years.

Passing of the torch…

The community George will be living has an onsite exercise facility, and a trainer to help facilitate exercise for the residents.  He and I calculated that he would have roughly 20 training sessions left, and we both want to maximize them.  I offered to capture some of our upcoming workouts onto video to share with his new trainer, and George agreed this was a good idea. This will not be about instructing the new trainer on how to work with George.  Rather, this will be done so the trainer can more easily assess George’s limitations, and abilities.

I have great faith that the trainers there will help George continue on his path of most resistance.  I can only hope they will appreciate his good nature, intellect, and wit, and warmth.  I have worked with many clients of varying ages, and for varying reasons through the years – hundreds.  It is an honor that George is the first person I induct into the Contemplative Fitness hall of fame.


My own father lived with Parkinson’s disease.  He also died with it.  Thoughts of the physical deterioration associated with this affliction resonate with me daily.  Though the data is incomplete as to whether or not there is a genetic lineage, I somewhat expect it at some point.   We’re not much for curing great diseases in recent years.  Maybe we’re not supposed to.  Perhaps the best we can do is to take care of ourselves well enough that we avoid disease, in hopes research will help us treat the symptoms as best we can should we ever become afflicted.

I have been writing this blog for many years now.  I have done so strictly as a hobby.  I have never asked that it be supported by donations, nor have I sought sponsorship.  I ask today, one time only, if you have found value in reading this essay, please make even a small donation to the Davis Phinney Foundation, or a similar organization.  Thank you, and be well…  rc


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We’re f#cked

I’ve been ruminating heavily on a word we hear, and read more and more in this age of increasing complexity; sustainable.  As the world changes, complexity increases and begets more complexity in all aspects of life, the idea of sustainability in anything seems less likely. 

We see leadership in technology, government, and business using the term sustainability to support their ambitions, or to push their agenda.  If one steps back, and takes a big picture look, the idea of sustainability becomes more an illusion than an outcome.  George Harrison wasn’t the first, but he said it well in his song, All Things Must Pass.

Too often something we see as being sustainable comes with hidden costs that only become disclosed after the fact.  This has everything do with our collective misunderstanding of cause and effect.  The example I like to use when discussing unintended consequences is this:

cause and effect logo

In the late 1980s there was a huge push to end the use of disposable diapers.  Science had proven that disposable diapers (like many plastics) would take hundreds of years to break down in our increasingly dense landfills.  In the long-term, it would have a negative effect on our environment.  So the push was on for parents to use reusable cloth diapers, and diaper services. 

As this movement took hold, science took a closer look at the short-term impact of cloth diapers.  There were harsh chemicals used in the cleaning of these diapers; chemicals which might enter water systems, and perhaps leave residue which might harm a baby’s skin.  There were the effects of fossil fuels used in the transportation of those diaper services which entered our atmosphere. 

All of the sudden, disposable diapers seemed to have a lesser impact on the environment than the reusable diapers.  Still, there is that landfill issue.  Also, what chemicals are used in the manufacturing of disposable diapers…? 

Face it, either form of diaper is going to have a negative impact on the environment, and neither may be sustainable in the long-term.  All things must pass.

Sustainability in fitness…

As in business, government, and technology, complexity in what we call fitness has increased as well.  Trends have evolved, picked up momentum and become as sexy as the idea of cloth diapers.  People get on board with these trends, and like cloth diapers, the trends take off.

Then, a little time passes, someone takes a closer look, observations are made, and the consequences of the trends become exposed. 

·         Excessive cardio (may) lead to increased appetite.

·         Artificial sweeteners (may) disrupt the function of insulin.

·         Weight loss surgeries (may) hold long-term digestive consequences.

·         Weight loss drugs (always) have negative side effects.

·         Hardcore exercise trends (may) lead to injury, overuse syndrome, and fatigue.


And so it goes.  I guess we’re not so smart after all.  All things must pa-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-ss.

Complete this form, please…

It had been nearly a year since I worked out in a public gym.  In this instance, it was an LA Fitness in downtown Chicago.  Within seconds of entering the facility I began to cringe.  I saw every poor-form exercise stereotype imaginable – simultaneously.  It was chaos in the flesh. I wanted to set myself on fire right there, either as an immediate escape, or to call attention to the problem, I’m not sure.



Despite the less-than-sustainable self-abuse I saw going on around me, I completed my strength training session, hopped on the StepMill for 30 minutes, and walked away feeling improved for my investment of time and effort.

I say this often,

“Exercise should make your life better, not worse.”

I felt like the only person in that gym who was connected to that ideal.  The workout I did was challenging, yet safe and sustainable.

Pulley logic… 

 Among the primary tenets of my exercise philosophy is this:

The car with the most, and the hardest miles on it, will likely go to the junkyard first.   Of course this is relative to the maintenance of the car, the fuel used, and the intelligence used to select the course.  I believe, because I have seen, exercise performed without a logical and intelligent approach may do a body more harm than good, and may not be sustainable. 

But there also comes into play this question:  Is it about the length of the journey, or the enjoyment of the ride…?  I want my own journey to be both long, and enjoyable.


Not a huge weight, but challenging, and sustainable

Sustainability revisited…

Rigorous exercise enhances my life for a variety of reasons.  Above all, it clears my head, and provides me with a confidence not otherwise experienced.  Though at times it can take a physical toll on me, and may have effects which won’t become disclosed for years to come, I believe my current workout scheme is sustainable in the long-term – at least until I’m in my 70s, and perhaps longer with a few modifications.

At the end of the day I know these are true:

          If I die from old age, I will not die with 6-pack abs.

          At 83, I will deadlift much less than I can today, but I will still deadlift.

          At 89, Full Beast Mode will mean that I won’t be using a walker.

          At 93, my triathlon might consist of undoing my belt, pulling down my diaper, and running to the bathroom simultaneously, that I might make it in time.

Straight up, a lot of trends I see in fitness and wellness these days may not be sustainable for the practitioner.   Though I understand that sustainability may not even be a consideration for many, I’ll suggest that it become part of the conversation because we’re all getting older.  Be well…  rc


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On Exercise And Aging…

The Fountain Of Truth

My first book report was in the 3rd grade; it was to be on an explorer in the New World.  A learning disabled reader, I sought a book with more pictures and captions than printed text.  Only one book in the school library met this criteria; a book on Juan Ponce de Leon who, legend had it, made a quest in searching for the fountain of youth.  Historians now believe this quest was more legend than not.

Despite that de Leon’s quest was mostly a fairytale, the selection of this book would be one of the first influences to steer the directionality of my life.  Even in the 3rd grade I came to understand de Leon’s, and the world’s quest for youth, made no sense.  How could people be so stupid, I reasoned at age 9, as to fight aging…?  Even then I understood that aging is one of our primary lots in life.

As a 3rd grader the concept of aging was already front in my psyche.  I could not wait to get into 4th grade, into middle school, high school and so-on.  I thought about aging a great deal in that sense.  Being older offered so much more.  I remember once sitting in my bath tub at age 8 or 9, and hoping I could live to be 100 years old, believing that if I could, I would be as wise as God. 

The Tipping Point

But there is a tipping point for most – a time when many people quit counting up and begin counting down.  For many, I’ll suggest this comes in the 30s or 40s, and the calendar becomes more a mile marker bitch honing in on death, than a view of the plentiful time ahead.  I’m just not there yet – to the tipping point and not sure I ever will be.  I want to attain – to earn all the traits of being old because I understand that if I live that long, being old is what I’m supposed to be.  Age spots, gray hair, wrinkles, no hair, nose hairs, slower steps, aches, pains, etc; these are the mile markers of our existence. I can’t wait for my long gray ponytail.

But worldwide billions of dollars are spent every week by hundreds of millions of people to get an upper hand on the inevitable.  Although anti-aging is not even a legitimate subset of western medicine, and the AMA frowns on use of the term, anti-aging, clinics are popping all over the world to help candidates battle the inevitable.  Primary to many of these clinics is the use of HGH as a means of living better and longer.  That’s an essay for another day. 

Conversations Over Crunches

There are but a handful of topics which get discussed in my studio each day.  Chief among them are eating, cancer, and aging – in that order.  Aging though, is the topic which most frustrates my clients – especially those over 40. 

I hear this, or something like it almost daily,

“I refuse to get old.” 

It’s often followed up or preceded by,

“I ache everywhere these days.”

My canned response to these statements usually goes like this,  

“Be it by designer, or by Designer, we were designed to age.  None of us are immune.  If we are lucky enough to be born living, we begin aging immediately – and it never ends.” 

I continue,

“Show me somebody over the age of 30 who doesn’t ache somewhere, have a ding, a ping, and crackle a bit here and there, and I’ll show you somebody who wasted 30 years of their life.”

The awkward duality is that they often blame their workouts with me for many of their aches and pains – yet they come back for more…?  Kill me.

Being Safe In The Gym; Aches And Pains Notwithstanding

I buy it up to a point; the car with the most and the hardest miles on it will likely go to the junkyard first – but not always.  I workout intensely almost every day of my life, and I do have some aches and pains which I can relate directly to my workouts, but these are not injuries.  Though I workout hard, I workout safe and intelligently.  The reality is that intense exercise can wear a body down to a degree, but when exercise is practiced safely, the body should recover and be better for the wear. 

I’m 50 years old.  I can jump and land squarely on a picnic table – and I can do so for many repetitions.  I can hike fast uphill non-stop for an hour or more.  I can touch my palms to the floor, touch my ass to my heels, I can sit down on the ground and stand back up without using my hands.  I never need help moving anything – even the refrigerator I placed in my studio the other day.  Being strong, fast, and flexible are good problems to have – even if they are accompanied by some occasional aches, pains, and soreness. 

When good exercise form is practiced, it is nearly impossible to become injured in the course of strength training.  This doesn’t mean there won’t be achiness or soreness subsequent to the workout.  It means there should be no injuries.  Those associated short-term aches and pains might turn a lot of people away from strength training.  I can assure you, the associated strength, flexibility, and command and control of the body are a supreme dividend in exchange for a few dings and pings.  Be well.  rc

Please check back in 2 weeks for more on the philosophy behind the fitness.  Oh, and there is this from 4-string savant, Seasick Steve.  Enjoy…

Guns And Moses…

For The Love Of Guns, And The Loathing Of Shackles

My relationship with bodybuilding is over 35 years old.  It was the mid-1970s, I was in my teens and big time competitive bodybuilding was in its prime.  Men like Frank Zane, Roby Robinson, Franco Columbu, Dave Draper, and Mike Katz captured my attention like fishing lures.  These were educated, avant-garde men who were as accomplished outside the gym as they were within it.  I thought that following them would lead me into the promised land, but I ended up in shackles for nearly a decade.

Bodybuilding at its highest level would soon begin to fade into the embarrassing elderly state it now displays.  What once seemed like a noble pursuit became increasing awkward, and clumsy to think about, let alone discuss with anyone outside the gym.

As competitive bodybuilding grew in one direction, I grew in another.  By early adulthood, I recognized that I wanted nothing to do with it – we had developed irreconcilable differences.  Bodybuilding was losing its intelligence, and I was inexplicably gaining some.  Unable to find middle ground, I began wanting a divorce from this stranger I no longer knew.

Of The Term, Bodybuilder

Just hearing or speaking the term, bodybuilder, has caused me to cringe.  I have hated that word.  It conjures images in my mind of modern bodybuilding which I now find embarrassing, and obtuse as a collective.  Big time competitive bodybuilding has outgrown itself, out thought itself, and become well representative of our western lust for excess, extremes, and single-mindedness in all other areas.  The modern bodybuilder’s credo is, go big or go home.  As that go big or go home way of life became more confined to the gym, and applied less to life beyond the workout, the men and women at the top became increasingly trite in my eyes.

Different Levels Of Heck

But there’s more than one kind of bodybuilding.  There are non-competitive bodybuilders; those who do it for very personal reasons, and of course those reasons can vary.  That kind of bodybuilding still seems noble to me.  It is most often pursued as a hobby, much like the running, surfing, or building model airplanes. I actually enjoy attending local level bodybuilding shows; the crowds are always enthusiastic and most of the athlete/artists are purely motivated, and are in it for the joy of training, not the result of competing.

At the end of the day, most people I know can be placed into three categories:

1)      Bodybuilders

2)      Body Acceptors

3)      Body Destroyers

Those terms speak for themselves.  When I think in those terms, the word bodybuilder becomes more appealing to me – I like it.  Given a choice between the three, I reckon this country would be much better off if we were all bodybuilders.  In that context, I’m proud to say I am one.

Two Sides To Every Roy

Even as a noncompetitive personal lifestyle, I can sometimes have mixed feelings on bodybuilding.  Mostly, I find it reinforcing, cleansing, and rewarding – a sustainable lifestyle.  Other times, it has been demanding, and has seemed like a giant waste of my time and efforts.  However, for better or worse, the ideal of bodybuilding has occupied a large share of my essence for most of my life.  Bodybuilding bit me at a young age, and all these years later I can’t tell if that bite was one of affection or one of aggression, but the teeth marks still show, and the venom is still in my blood.

Still In Love; Bodybuilding Light

There would be no official divorce, just an on again/off again relationship involving several trial separations through a couple of decades which lead me to running marathons, racing ocean-going paddleboards, cycling, kayaking, trail running, and even competitive stair climbing to the tops of skyscrapers.  Through these separations from bodybuilding, and despite relationships with other forms of action, I have come to realized I never left the concept of bodybuilding at all.

Through it all; running, paddling, and climbing, the weight room has been there most every day of my life, and the training never drifted too far from the kind of training serious bodybuilding requires.  At some point though, I gave up the idea of lifting big weights for big muscles, with a go big or go home attitude.  But I never let go of that connection that bodybuilding movements foster between the inner and the outer me.   Bodybuilding is the methadone of my existence.

Go Big or Go Home (Small)

Good Things Come In Slow Packages

To lift weights slowly, through a complete range of motion, in a quiet room, with absolute concentration on the muscles involved, is a way to connect the mind and body on a level that yoga and Pilates, would envy.  Though I use lighter weights these days, the term “lighter” is not to suggest that it’s easy.  I can make a lighter weight a whole lot heavier by slowing it down and applying a high level of concentration to it.  In my gym, in those moments when the eccentric phase of an exercise seamlessly transitions back to the concentric, the world outside the repetition seems far away from me as the most distant galaxies, and I am proud to be a bodybuilder.  In those moments, I am at my absolute happiest, and feel as blessed as a baby in a manger.  Be well.  rc


Please check back in two weeks for to see what happens when I push the “stop” button on the blender in my head.  Oh, and there is this from the legendary Dale Watson, enjoy…

Taking Back My Potential, Part III

This is Part III of what was going to be a 3-part series on Building My Own Religion.  There’s probably going to be a Part IV, and maybe a Part V.  Tune in 2 weeks and find out…


“Religion, like it or not, has endured since early hunter-gatherer societies, and is an obvious trait of cultural evolution.   For me, the acknowledgment of this, the consideration of, if not the understanding of religion is one of the more important aspects of being human in the modern world.  Living in this era of increasing religious fundamentalism, among multiple faiths, as well as the increasing state of so-called, militant atheism, I feel that it’s more important than ever to explore purpose on a more personal level, and to do so honestly and with an open mind.” Me


Moral North

For much of my adult I have looked down to see my moral compass spinning beneath me.  Many of my lesser choices, often times, just didn’t seem that bad.  I have reasoned that since my compass spun as such, it was okay to make some iffy choices.  After all, at some point the spinning needle would be pointing in or near the direction I would be exploiting.  More recently though, and from a more mortal vantage point, I have come to realize that the needle was rigid all along – pointing only in one direction.  The illusion masking my moral truth was me, standing over my compass, looking down at the rigid needle and walking in circles around it.

From Little, Can Come Much

Most physicists and mathematicians will tell you that there is an inherent beauty in short equations; that scientific truths, explained in the simplest terms, are elegant and beautiful.  Since I am neither a scientist nor an expert in mathematics, I will simply trust them.  Of long and drawn out equations, as explanations for complex problems, says physicist and mathematician John Polkinghorne, “The answers are almost always flawed – and seldom pretty.”

I often think of religious scripture in this way; that they can be so drawn out, so complicated, and so over-thought that not only can they be ugly, but they’re probably flawed as well.  Of course I know that there is great beauty within much religious scripture, and certainly much wisdom through the ages.  Still, when it comes to religious values, I believe that they can all be reduced to one simple equation; it’s beautiful and it’s undeniably true: 

“Do unto others, as you would have them do unto you.”

Variations of this are woven into the DNA of most every faith, and every religious scripture.  I believe it’s woven into our personal DNA as well, but that is a source of great debate in science – that there might, or might not be a God gene, if not a good gene.  Most days I think religion should stop right there, with the Golden Rule.  Still, we pile on, add to it, transmogrify it, over think its simple elegance, and then we proselytize with it to fulfill our agenda, justify our ignorance, or both. 

Can I get A Witness…? Simple Tenets For My Internal Tenants

There are about a dozen lesser Roys within me, battling for playing time: 

Obsessive fitness Roy.  Short tempered Roy.  Fall for anything Roy.  Showoff Roy.  Need to be entertained Roy.  Foul mouthed Roy.  Flippant Roy.  Fall in with the crowd Roy.  Tequila Roy.  Win over the eyes, if not the hearts of all women on the planet Roy.  Spend it as soon as you earn it Roy.  And of course we can’t forget, Judgmental Roy, among a few others. 

But there is also the Roy within me who aspires to live above the other Roys – the Roy who realizes that it’s me who’s been spinning, and not the needle.  I need a simple formula, soon, that I reconcile these lesser Roys, or the blender in my head is going to explode.    

The Process Of Elimination

“Do unto others, as I would have them do unto me.”  As scrutinized by a judgment committee, meeting deep inside my head.”

That’s not a joke actually.  Since I was quite young, perhaps the 3rd grade or so, I have felt like there has been a committee, gathered around a table in a meeting room, watching every move I make on closed circuit television.  I refer to them as, My Moral Junta.  In my head, this committee has consisted of rotating participants including god, my parents, various friends, neighbors, employers, and even Mick Jagger on occasion – Jagger there more as a color commentator and opposing theorist, than panelist.  As a committee, I have envisioned that they consult on each move I make, using their consensus to set up the next challenge they will place ahead of me.  Sadly, I actually live this out in my head regularly – and for decades.


Please check back in two weeks for Part IV of Building My Own Religion; The Check-List…

Oh, and there’s this very engaging cover of Neil Young’s, Powderfinger by the legendary San Diego band, The Beat Farmers.  Enjoy…

Taking Back My Potential, Part II

Here’s part II of my 3-part series on building my own religion.  Please check back in 2 weeks for Part III;   Why We Applaud Self-Taught Guitar Players, But Not Self-Taught Religion

You may read this and think I’m talking out of my ass this week, and for good reason; my ass has always had persuasive oratory skills, and a fair bit of charm.  But today, I write from another place.


“Everywhere you look, there’s a kind of a religion on the horizon, which is, for many people, ominous and threatening, but not promising.”  Harvey Cox

Inside My Head; Searching For Substance In The Mind Of A Chia Pet

I have said for a long time that I believe the world would be a better place if people spent more time writing bibles than reading them.  That for all the scripture and holy literature which has been cast over the souls and minds of man through the ages, for all of its power, its utility, and all its repetition, how much of it has come from within…?  

I believe that everyone and everything is interconnected – that we are not just the stuff of stars, but that stars are the stuff of us.  I believe that time is both cyclical and eternal.  In an eternal universe, anything that can happen probably will.  A person I may wish to spit upon or give the finger to today, might be a part of me tomorrow and thus, I choose not to spit, and not to flip off.   Of course, like you, I don’t really live this way. I regularly spit upon, curse at, and hurt people, and on some occasions I stretch the truth a bit, while on other occasions I blow the truth to pieces.

The Selfish Genie

The world outside me interests me far less than the world within me.  This is not to say that I’m grossly enamored with the world within me, but what’s bottled up inside me is just foremost in my thoughts.  Richard Dawkins says this is okay.  The world within me has been pretty disappointing when weighed against the potential within me. I am hoping to steer my life in a better direction – to let the good genie out of the bottle to do good things in this world.  In the coming months and years, while there is still time, I hope to adjust my course.

Below is the cornerstone scripture that I hope will (help) guide me toward better thoughts, better choices, and better actions and contributions.  I wrote what follows years ago while sitting on a jetty after an inspired beach run in Oceanside, CA. 

Aiming The Canon At Me

I’m keenly aware that this is derivative of every common religious doctrine, but in this incarnation, it is my personal mission statement:

I accept that this is my place, and this is my time.

I am grateful for life, for each new day, and each new chance to walk on the right path.

I forgive myself for mistakes made and sins committed.  I will seek to learn from those mistakes and from those sins, that they not become repeated.

I am grateful for the blessings and opportunities which surround me.  I will seek to recognize and appreciate those blessings, and to fulfill those opportunities for the betterment of this world, the people in it, and the people in my life.

I will remember that it is not my place to judge; that what somebody looks like, or what they don’t look like, is not a reflection of who they are.  I will remember that behind every pair of eyes is a heart, a soul, and circumstances of which I know nothing about.

I will actively embrace the tasks of the day, demonstrating achievement on behalf of my family, my friends, my associates, and my community.

I will live by example.

I will be relentlessly positive in the face of adversity, seeking a higher meaning from difficult circumstances.

I will maintain the highest level of honesty with myself as well as those about me, recognizing that honest thoughts and honest actions are the foundation on which all other virtues can grow.

Communication Breakdown

I have recited this, from memory, every morning of my life since the day I wrote it in 2003 – and it has not done me a bit of good.  Most days I violate 97% of it by the time I’m done with my morning coffee.  Still, I remain observant to the task if not to the doctrine.  But I want it – this time I really want it. I want to live like this – more within my conscience, and less within the ease of lesser choices and the excuse that, I’m only human

Nearly two years ago I said I would give my car away and become a bicycle commuter.  Through wind, rain, and tonsillitis, I have not been broken, nor have I turned back.  I gave up television, and have never looked back.  I gave up all news and information media; print and electronic – I have not heard, seen, or read the news in months, and have no intention of ever doing so again.  Celebrity death or national debt, my only news source is word of mouth – and I take that with grain.  So when I announce what structure – what changes I might superimpose on way of living, in an attempt to better myself, my history is one of fulfillment, not of talking out of my ass.  Be well.  rc


Please check back in 2 weeks for Part III of this series;Why We Applaud Self-Taught Guitar Players, But Not Self-Taught Religion. 

Oh, and there’s this from Pops Staples.  Why this has less the 7.8 billion “views” is beyond me.  Enjoy