Every morning, usually within 3 to 4 minutes of waking up, I begin my ritual exploration of who I really am. Don’t be too impressed, I don’t put a lot of effort into it, usually don’t come to any profound conclusions, and due to my susceptibility to the distractions of my pets and my phone, this process has little influence on the outcome of my days.
On those days however, after major natural disasters, news of the bombing of dozens in a public square, and especially on those days when we hear of yet another school shooting, I will dig a little deeper and ask myself some hard questions, seeking what I hope are honest answers.
I simply wish to discover, for better or for worse, who I really am. Not the person I want to be, pretend to be, or strive to be, but who I really am right now at this moment.
When I ask myself the hardest question though, that’s when I freeze.
Am I a man of action…?
I suppose that all depends on how we define action. I want to believe I am a man of action, and with some circumstances I can be. In most instances though, and on the heels of great tragedy, I get very contemplative and even reflective, but action — well, I usually just leave that to the powers that be. I mean, my voting is supposed to take care of my action anyway, yes…? But it hasn’t always worked out that way.
On the heels of tragedy, I’m a person who still sees good in the world more than bad. I’m a person who still sees society on an upward and more positive trajectory — an arc of increasing social cooperation and morality. I’m a person who favors love over hate, forgiveness over revenge, and decorum over screaming — every time. And I hope that I live in accordance with those conclusions. I’ve come up short though, on taking much action aside from my voting.
I’ll be chewing on all of this in the coming days and weeks. I’m certain little or nothing at all will come from my inward search, but maybe.
I suppose the only thing I really feel this morning though is that, despite the ridiculous criticisms to the contrary, sometimes thoughts and prayers are all we have. For many, those thoughts and those prayers are the only immediate action we have to take as we seek shelter from the storms…. Jhciacb
Please this a like and a share. And please check back in a few weeks to see what happens when I push the STOP button on the blender in my head. Oh, and there’s this from Chuck Prophet. Enjoy…!